Jashel: August 2008

I finished the book yesterday and went to bed at 4am because I could not stop reading. I've finished the book in 2 days and I don't do that much often! I LOVE this book and I will somehow spread the word about it! I know from the start I will remember evey tale John Grogan wrote about Marley and his family, it's really heart warming. Sheds some tears in the middle of the night.

John convinced me to convince my mom to get another dog that's bad behaving, because bad dog turnes into great dog in the end *thums up*. I do still love my little 3 year old pomeranian-poodle but she's the oposite of Marley ;)

Overall this book taught me alot of things and made me think about life diferently and how to live it like it's your last. I want to say,

Special thanks to John and Marley, and his family

I just got back home from the Tokio Hotel concert in Sayreville NJ and right now my ears are in a bad condition from Tom's guitar riffs and Georg beastly drums. To add to my nagging my voice is crack like a boy just hit their puberty and it hurts when I talk because singing along with Bill on the top of my lungs, and mostly I’m incredibly exhausted. I have to say that that was the most brutal, vicious, painful Tokio Hotel concert I’ve ever been too, hands down, but it was kind of worth it…. I think. I decide to make a review about what happened to me while I was there so whenever I want to look back to this day I’ve got something to read for a memembrance and to laugh about later on and I’m just going to jolt some pointers down today and finish this tomorrow.

In line:

We’re not allowed to line up after 10am, I don’t know why or you’ll get arrested. We had other things to do before we went to the Starland ballroom in Sayreville NJ so it was the time 2 or 3pm when we arrived there and the line was long already, however it really didn’t bother me much. Abby and I, we came together decided we’ll just push our way thought the front like we always do and we successfully manage to get what we want.

In my own little world, standing there in line feels likes 2 hours just passed but in reality only 10 minutes just went by, so the time went really slow for me that time.

a little story you don't have to read. VVV
The funny thing was, the sun was hitting my face while I was in line and I kept squinting my eyes a lot. I forgot to bring my sunglasses so I turned my back around from the sun but I was wearing shorts that day and I totally forgot about that, so 2-3 hours later my legs and thighs started to burn and I touched it, of course it was burning hot so I turned around to see what was going on with my legs and it was really red, sunburn, I knew I’m going to have major discoloration, dark on the back, light on the front. It was unbelievable.

Inside the venue, before TH came out:

They start to let people in around 7pm and once we got in the venue there was somewhat a lot of people inside already so we searched for a spot that has right amount of crowd. My cousin and I were between Tom and Bill side. We waited a little longer to fill in the place until there were enough people to explain why we’re ‘pushing’ ......

It took me and my cousin a great amount of force, and a lot to energy to get to where we really want to be. We ended up 4th row in the front, which was a great spot; I have to tell you that. But we were so burned out once we got there. Of course the closer you get to the stage the harder and pressed together you are. I couldn’t even move my hands and my boobs felt it was going to explode because I was pressed against the person in front of me XD

There were more than 2,000 people there I heard, they overflowed the venue which really sucks, all they care is about the money. The people behind us were trying to steal our spot literally getting to the front but we really didn’t let that happen, although we have to pay a painful outcome to that. Seriously, I really don’t know how to express what happened to me yesterday, we were pressed to each other it was disgusting because our body heat start to exchange and you start to sweat. It felt like I was press forcefully so as to break up into a pulpy mass. There was so much shoving and pushing and the concert didn’t even start yet.

Then all of a sudden David Jost, Tokio Hotel stupid manager came out on stage 2 times! And start taking pictures of the crowd with a huge smile on his face. Dude, can’t he see how we’re sufferings at that moment?! And people were pushing even harder, it felt like my ribs were starting to crush and puncture my lungs, then eventually me dieing, and I’m not ready for that yet.

After that, when Everyone was inside the venue the crowd got worsens, everyone in the back just wanted to be in the front so they shoved us people in the front towards the stage and it hurt soo bad. I knew at that moment by the time TH comes out it's going to be 5 times the hell. Other people began moaning and groaning lol even I did also. They pulled out a lot of girls in the front already, I felt bad because Tokio Hotel didn't come out yet. I was freaking out if I’m going to be the next one to be pulled out because I was ready to pass out.

My friend who waited 1am for the show was way in the front row and there was this bar in front of her, then all of a sudden she fainted, and people wouldn’t make way so she could get some fresh air so my other friend who was with her has to carry her out and start pushing people and I saw them two right in front of me stirring away then I started crying because I felt so bad, I couldn’t stop thinking about her, she worked really hard to get that spot.

Tokio Hotel came out:

Abby and I was separated I didn’t know where she was somewhere in the mob. When TH came out I couldn’t take it any longer. Almost everyone was singing along and their hot breath was hitting on me and it was actually tough to breathe. People in the back were jumping and all of us in the front were just standing there trying to get a hold of our self. I knew this was going to happen but I didn't know it was going to be this dreadful. My shirt was drenched with sweat, it was gross. Then I lost my left shoe when the show begain, so everyone was just stomping on my foot!

After a minute or two, after Bill started singing his first song, in some way, my mind just went blank for second or two. Maybe because I was out of oxygen and I was really dehydrated. This show was out my expectance, it just went terribly wrong.

My legs were drained out it felt like I had no control of them. Then I started crying because I didn’t like the situation I’m in at that point, I just wanted to be pulled out there, so when I start taken in what’s happening around me I moved my way through the back so all that pushing in the beginning was worthless.

I moved around 20-25 rows back or when I start to take in some cool air or the crowd was less intense. But even thou I’m far way from Tokio Hotel I had fun after I start to get my energy or strength back. In the backside, it was much calmer and no one was stepping on my foot; I liked it at that moment. I didn't care if I was in back I just wanted to have fun and be a harebrained. I sang couple of songs and just mumbled the words to the ones I'm not familiar with.
I pretty much loved it in back.

After the show:

Before 5 minutes after the show ended I found Abby also in the back, I was shocked because I thought she stayed in the front. She told me that she couldn’t handle it either and it was too much for her. So I really wasn’t the only one who felt it also. Me and her just had our fun together for 5 minutes and started bawling our eyes out because it was the ending and we didn’t want it to end and the time went really fast.

I told her I have to go back in there and look for my shoe after everyone was gone, and then she started laughing which I expected from her lol

THE END

Ps. I found my shoe by the rail and it only took me 5 minutes to find it!

Pss. I lost 4 pounds :D